Let me start by stating that my addiction is not that I want to screw anything that walks on two legs. I only want my wife. She is my best friend, the absolute coolest person I've ever met, and she is one of those natural extroverts that people love being around. She is also a gorgeous woman but she doesn't have a big ego at all. My libido is extremely strong and has just gotten stronger the longer we've been married (9 years so far). Our sex life is great...better than great. We have sex pretty often (on average once every two days, but maybe more because we will do it more than once frequently). We also both work, and have three kids (including a 16 year old who we have to be really discrete around and two girls, 6 and 4, who can't go more than 30 minutes without wanting our attention for something. Even with our busy schedules and kids all around, we make time for sex, and we have great sex. In terms of previous partners, it's not even close for either of us. I gave her the second orgasm she'd ever had in her life the first time we had sex and she blows my mind with just laying a fingertip on me. The sexual attraction we have for each other is ridiculous, especially considering how long we've been together (almost 11 years).
Sounds great doesn't it? So whats the problem? The problem is that I'm addicted to sex...with my wife. Extremely addicted. If she would let me, I'd fuck her every waking minute if my life. After we have sex I'm ready to go again..and again...and again. Eventually she gets sore or tired and wants to stop. Just last night we went out to dinner, left the kids with their grandparents, came back home and had sex for probably two to three hours. I probably came 3 or 4 times. She eventually was exhausted (she is an early sleeper and it was 3am) and wanted to sleep. I still wanted to have sex but she was done. So I jerked off over her naked body until I came again. Then I went to sleep. I woke up this morning and first thing on my mind was sex. She was still sore, but she wanted it too so we lubed up and went at it again. After we were done I wanted another go at it, but she was too sore and still tired from the previous night. Then the rest of the day was pretty normal...cooked brunch, watched a movie with the kids at home, then went to my wife's nephew's bd party til the evening and came home. First thing on my mind...get my wife naked and have sex. She was tired and just wanted to put the kids to bed then lie together in bed and watch a movie and go to sleep. I said ok but what was really on my mind was, "maybe this will lead to sex.". Well...about 30 min into the movie she was so tired she couldn't even go brush her teeth and just wanted to sleep.
Here is where the problem comes. I was hoping for sex. It wasn't going to happen. I was disappointed and got moody. She wanted me to hold her in bed while she slept, I just wanted to leave the room. It sounds awful just typing this but it's the truth. I can't help feeling that way. It happens quite often, too. It's very frustrating for me because I know I'm being childish and overly sensitive, but that's why I call it an addiction...I can't help it! We've actually had little fights about it where I've complained that I feel I'm not getting enough sex or that she doesn't want it enough, when in reality it's not that she doesn't want it like any normal woman with a strong libido, it's that I want her to want it as much as I do!
The reason why I went into detail about my previous night and today was to show, in a microcosm, that this is not her problem. I think pretty much any other guy, in my situation, would be 100% satisfied (and then some) with the quantity and quality if sex that we have. It's all on me. I've tried telling myself to try to not desire her so much, but that's like telling me to try not to breathe any more. The slightest touch from her drives me wild and I find myself trying to be physically and emotionally distant from her so I don't feel the urges. She is not oblivious when I do this and has commented on how I seem cold sometimes.
I guess I just don't know what to do. I love the way I lust for my wife, but I don't like how I get when I'm disappointed. My wife is completely understanding and she says she doesn't mind that I always want her and that she would be worried if I stopped. I've told her everything I just said here and that I think I'm addicted to her. We are very open with each other and communicate very well. I know I need to grow up and stop acting like a child who just got denied a brand new toy, but it's much easier said than done. I guess a part of me is afraid that she will stop wanting me..that the sex will stop and become an afterthought. But i also know that my actions aren't helping and might actually be hurting.
I also think and hope that by saying all this and putting it out there in an open forum will help me see the big picture and better understand how I feel and how to control it.
Sounds great doesn't it? So whats the problem? The problem is that I'm addicted to sex...with my wife. Extremely addicted. If she would let me, I'd fuck her every waking minute if my life. After we have sex I'm ready to go again..and again...and again. Eventually she gets sore or tired and wants to stop. Just last night we went out to dinner, left the kids with their grandparents, came back home and had sex for probably two to three hours. I probably came 3 or 4 times. She eventually was exhausted (she is an early sleeper and it was 3am) and wanted to sleep. I still wanted to have sex but she was done. So I jerked off over her naked body until I came again. Then I went to sleep. I woke up this morning and first thing on my mind was sex. She was still sore, but she wanted it too so we lubed up and went at it again. After we were done I wanted another go at it, but she was too sore and still tired from the previous night. Then the rest of the day was pretty normal...cooked brunch, watched a movie with the kids at home, then went to my wife's nephew's bd party til the evening and came home. First thing on my mind...get my wife naked and have sex. She was tired and just wanted to put the kids to bed then lie together in bed and watch a movie and go to sleep. I said ok but what was really on my mind was, "maybe this will lead to sex.". Well...about 30 min into the movie she was so tired she couldn't even go brush her teeth and just wanted to sleep.
Here is where the problem comes. I was hoping for sex. It wasn't going to happen. I was disappointed and got moody. She wanted me to hold her in bed while she slept, I just wanted to leave the room. It sounds awful just typing this but it's the truth. I can't help feeling that way. It happens quite often, too. It's very frustrating for me because I know I'm being childish and overly sensitive, but that's why I call it an addiction...I can't help it! We've actually had little fights about it where I've complained that I feel I'm not getting enough sex or that she doesn't want it enough, when in reality it's not that she doesn't want it like any normal woman with a strong libido, it's that I want her to want it as much as I do!
The reason why I went into detail about my previous night and today was to show, in a microcosm, that this is not her problem. I think pretty much any other guy, in my situation, would be 100% satisfied (and then some) with the quantity and quality if sex that we have. It's all on me. I've tried telling myself to try to not desire her so much, but that's like telling me to try not to breathe any more. The slightest touch from her drives me wild and I find myself trying to be physically and emotionally distant from her so I don't feel the urges. She is not oblivious when I do this and has commented on how I seem cold sometimes.
I guess I just don't know what to do. I love the way I lust for my wife, but I don't like how I get when I'm disappointed. My wife is completely understanding and she says she doesn't mind that I always want her and that she would be worried if I stopped. I've told her everything I just said here and that I think I'm addicted to her. We are very open with each other and communicate very well. I know I need to grow up and stop acting like a child who just got denied a brand new toy, but it's much easier said than done. I guess a part of me is afraid that she will stop wanting me..that the sex will stop and become an afterthought. But i also know that my actions aren't helping and might actually be hurting.
I also think and hope that by saying all this and putting it out there in an open forum will help me see the big picture and better understand how I feel and how to control it.
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