Hey guys,
Firstly, I apologise if this post is inappropriate for this forum, as it may be abit too "bloggish", and not posing a question for direct discussion.
Some may remember a thread I started previously about a girl I planned to ask out, my first, and what went down. In short, we ended up going out, having an amazing time, and doing the same the next week. And that's where it sort of fell apart. Looking back, and listening to her comments, I didn't let it develop organically and slowly.
In my rush to step out of the box of a "beta" and into an "alpha", I came on too heavy, too soon, I ended up making her feel pressured about our relationship dynamic. I was on an honesty kick, and I didn't realise the implications of that, from the perspective of the other individual involved, that talking openly and honestly to a large extent can be "scary" for the other. I wasn't aware of the pressure I was putting on her. That, combined with being classmates seems to be the straw to break the camels back.
She even compared it to me viewing her as an objective, and not an organic person.
We are still friends, and will probably get to know eachother moreso as time passes. We've gone out together since this happened, and all is well between us.
At the moment my infatuation is telling me that she is perfect, beautiful, and it is a tradegy that I messed this up. I know this is a lie, atleast the "perfect" and "tradegy" parts haha. It is also telling me that in time, as we get to know eachother better, the oppurtunity may come to try again. This I believe could be true, but again, I must push the thought from my head. It's not healthy for me, or our friendship.
I aim to play the field as of now. I'm seeing another girl on the weekend.
So looking back, I've learnt there is far more to getting the girl to "having confidence", and being willing to take a risk.
That's just the first step in the process.
Any advice for the actual process of courting a woman?
I've now learnt it's a process, and that it's not just a on/off type of scenario. That and that sometimes it's best to let the situation develop rather than just attempting to talk through it. A lot of my classmates talk about "game", which I've never really took a liking to previously, but now looking at them, and now that I have the confidence to actually try, maybe I should try going out with them and seeing what they do, and seeing what I think is appropriate to my own life.
Right now that is just that "fun", and cockiness, is by far more where the emphasis lies, atleast initially, than "depth".
Again, sorry for the rambling post.
I hate feeling like I've lost the right woman, even when I know there are so many more out there.
Regardless, I've emerged stronger, and wiser, even if at the moment I feel weaker.
Firstly, I apologise if this post is inappropriate for this forum, as it may be abit too "bloggish", and not posing a question for direct discussion.
Some may remember a thread I started previously about a girl I planned to ask out, my first, and what went down. In short, we ended up going out, having an amazing time, and doing the same the next week. And that's where it sort of fell apart. Looking back, and listening to her comments, I didn't let it develop organically and slowly.
In my rush to step out of the box of a "beta" and into an "alpha", I came on too heavy, too soon, I ended up making her feel pressured about our relationship dynamic. I was on an honesty kick, and I didn't realise the implications of that, from the perspective of the other individual involved, that talking openly and honestly to a large extent can be "scary" for the other. I wasn't aware of the pressure I was putting on her. That, combined with being classmates seems to be the straw to break the camels back.
She even compared it to me viewing her as an objective, and not an organic person.
We are still friends, and will probably get to know eachother moreso as time passes. We've gone out together since this happened, and all is well between us.
At the moment my infatuation is telling me that she is perfect, beautiful, and it is a tradegy that I messed this up. I know this is a lie, atleast the "perfect" and "tradegy" parts haha. It is also telling me that in time, as we get to know eachother better, the oppurtunity may come to try again. This I believe could be true, but again, I must push the thought from my head. It's not healthy for me, or our friendship.
I aim to play the field as of now. I'm seeing another girl on the weekend.
So looking back, I've learnt there is far more to getting the girl to "having confidence", and being willing to take a risk.
That's just the first step in the process.
Any advice for the actual process of courting a woman?
I've now learnt it's a process, and that it's not just a on/off type of scenario. That and that sometimes it's best to let the situation develop rather than just attempting to talk through it. A lot of my classmates talk about "game", which I've never really took a liking to previously, but now looking at them, and now that I have the confidence to actually try, maybe I should try going out with them and seeing what they do, and seeing what I think is appropriate to my own life.
Right now that is just that "fun", and cockiness, is by far more where the emphasis lies, atleast initially, than "depth".
Again, sorry for the rambling post.
I hate feeling like I've lost the right woman, even when I know there are so many more out there.
Regardless, I've emerged stronger, and wiser, even if at the moment I feel weaker.
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