Short story: I kissed other girls while being with her. I was a pig. She left me without saying anything and started a new relationship with another dude.
My fault, I know. Insecurities kept me from being with her (spot on dick, not that self-confident,...)
I deserved it all, but I can't forget her.
I cried before her, I texted her, I even threw a half pint of beer over her at a party, ...
I'm an emotional wreckingball/train.
I still miss her and love her. I fought for her.
We're 7 months further now and I don't know if she's still with that other dude. Anyways, I feel ashamed. Everytime I enter the venue where she is every week (my friends always go out in that place, so yes, I have to see her every week). I feel low in confidence although I'm an above average looking guy. I can feel her looking down on me. I just want her to have respect for me again.
I just don't know what to do. I told myself I'm nog gonna contact her for 100 days. Just to see what will happen.
I just want her back. She knows I regret everything and she accepted my apologies, but I always get "I'm with someone else now", "I want to see you happy too, but ...".
She knows I'm a good guy by heart. Again, I was a pig back then.
I don't have any revenge feelings, but I just want see her look at me and think "mm, he's changed, he looks good, I respect him" .. You know. I don't know what to do .. I've been a little winy wimp before all this .. For 7 months just trying to convince her to get back to me, giving her guilt feelings, ...
I feel weak. I cried a lot. Nowadays I try to waste all of my negative energy in the gym. Feels a bit better.
What's best to do? Just suck it up and move on? How?
Also, I always imagined us coming back together. But I have such a big dilemma. If we get back together, I just don't know if I'm strong enough to just accept the fact that she lost her virginity to that other guy and that another dick has been in her squirting loads in her. The thought sickens me.
My fault, I know. Insecurities kept me from being with her (spot on dick, not that self-confident,...)
I deserved it all, but I can't forget her.
I cried before her, I texted her, I even threw a half pint of beer over her at a party, ...
I'm an emotional wreckingball/train.
I still miss her and love her. I fought for her.
We're 7 months further now and I don't know if she's still with that other dude. Anyways, I feel ashamed. Everytime I enter the venue where she is every week (my friends always go out in that place, so yes, I have to see her every week). I feel low in confidence although I'm an above average looking guy. I can feel her looking down on me. I just want her to have respect for me again.
I just don't know what to do. I told myself I'm nog gonna contact her for 100 days. Just to see what will happen.
I just want her back. She knows I regret everything and she accepted my apologies, but I always get "I'm with someone else now", "I want to see you happy too, but ...".
She knows I'm a good guy by heart. Again, I was a pig back then.
I don't have any revenge feelings, but I just want see her look at me and think "mm, he's changed, he looks good, I respect him" .. You know. I don't know what to do .. I've been a little winy wimp before all this .. For 7 months just trying to convince her to get back to me, giving her guilt feelings, ...
I feel weak. I cried a lot. Nowadays I try to waste all of my negative energy in the gym. Feels a bit better.
What's best to do? Just suck it up and move on? How?
Also, I always imagined us coming back together. But I have such a big dilemma. If we get back together, I just don't know if I'm strong enough to just accept the fact that she lost her virginity to that other guy and that another dick has been in her squirting loads in her. The thought sickens me.
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