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#Penis Problems (Losing Your Virginity LATE)
All my life, i've been insecure about my penis size.
So much to the point that i've avoided sexual contact with females to spare myself the embarrassment of their dissatisfied reactions.
I've remained a virgin for 25 years due to this fear. However recently i lost my virginity, and started a long term relationship.
There have always been many females that showed interest in me, but i ALWAYS brushed them off because i felt like i would never be able to meet my, nor their expectations sexually.
I wanted a 12 inch mandingo size dick, but i have a dick between 6 and 7.5 inches. (depending on how hard it its).
Almost half the size of what i want it to be. (unrealistic expectations, I KNOW)
Probably due to the amount of porn i watched growing up, and how early i started watching porn. (been watching porn since like 10 years old).Prepubescent Porn watcher.
Probably would have been better to first see porn AFTER losing my virginity, but anyways.....
I eventually got to the point where i couldnt hold in my desire for sex, and recently decided to get in a relationship.
This girl i work with at walmart, like the others girls that were attracted to me, kept showing signs of interest, despite my constant ignoring of her advances.
I talked to my brother, and he convinced me i've had this fear for FAR to long, and it was hindering my quality of life, so i should take this girl out and see what happens.
I also didnt want to become a 40 year old virgin.
I got the girl number, and took her on a date to the movies that night.
Throughout the entire movie, all she talked about was sex. I dont even remember what the movie was about, we talked over an hour about our sexual experiences.
She ofcourse had several parters (she says 3), but i on the other hand was a virgin, but didnt want her to know that, so i had to improvise and come up with stories about my pseudo sexual encounters.
Dropped her off after the movie, nothing happend.
Next week we went to her house and we were watching t.v., then i had to act like a guy, and tell her i was ready to fuck, and she acted like a girl, and said she wasnt ready, then after i pushed the issue a few more times, eventually she said she was ready, and i pulled a condom out and attempted to have sex.
I wasnt able to get an erection at all, and tried to put my almost semi erect penis in, but it didnt work.
I ate her pussy for a bit, she asked to suck my dick, but i didnt want her to.
We pulled our pants up and called it a night.
The next day we tried again, still i couldnt get an erection.
The following week, we tried again, and i got a slightly harder erection, yet still couldnt successfully penetrate.
I spoke with my brother and he was also a late bloomer, and had experienced similar problems. He advised me to stop watching porn, as he did the same thing when he first started having sex.
I stopped porn for an entire week, and when i got horny, i would think about her while masturbating.
On our 4th attempt, with the help of natural lube, i finally was able to maintain an erection, and we were able to have sex, but i didnt cum.
The 5th time we finally had a pretty good 15-20 session, and i managed to get to the point of cumming.
Every since then, we have sex every time we see each other(at least 3 times a week, and twice a day on the days we do it), and she's the one who initiates it.
I can also maintain a rock hard 10 eq penis for a long period of time, and thanks to edging techniques, i can withhold cumming too quickly.
Heres the kicker, after sex, while we're cuddling one day, she mentions to me that i have the smallest penis she's seen on a man. Also she said i should consider surgery to make it longer. I brushed it off the first few times, and told her none of my "previous partners"(i have none) had a problem with my size. However, she continues to bring up how small my penis is, EVERY TIME we finish having sex.
Mind you, she moans while im fucking her, so i thought it was good enough for her.
I eventually started retorting back with insults about her pussy being loose, and her having a small ass, and being kinda fat.
Mind you, she's not really fat, just has a belly on her, her pussy is fine , and i dont mind her not having a huge ass, but i never brought that up EVERY damn time after sex.
She replied if i was serious about what i said, and insists that she is joking when she makes fun of my penis size.
I dont give her a straight answer, but i tell her she isnt perfect, but i still like the sex and am attracted to her.
I just dont understand why she is the one asking for the sex, yet constantly brings up how small it is.
She even said her ex was small, and showed me a picture of his penis. (Her ex was average, just like my size, but she apparently considers average small).
Before we started the relationship and was just dating, she would constantly ask me to show her my dick or send her dick pics, because she wanted to know what to look foreward to. She said she assumed i was small because at work she never saw my "penis print" on my pants.
She even makes jokes about finding another guy with a bigger dick and leaving me.
Last night when we had sex(which she initiated) i fucked her extremely harder than usual because i was angry that she keeps bringing up how small i am.
During the sex session, she kept pushing me back, and i moved her arms out the way, and my dick got harder and i kept hitting the vaginal walls and she was telling me i was hurting her, and going too deep, but i ignored her until i came.
Afterwards, she complained that her pussy hurts and she was sore. I told her "i thought my penis was too small. Surely a small penis cant hurt, or go too deep, you cant even feel it right??"
These comments she makes have been my WORST NIGHTMARE throughout out my 25 years of virgin lifehood.
I"ve always feared a girl not wanting me due to my dick being to small, or leaving me due to the size of my dick.
She claims she is joking about it being too small, but i dont see why she constantly mentions the size every time.
Also if she isnt joking, and really subconciously think its too small, why would she still want me to fuck her??
Also if its too small, and not long enough, why she tells me i was going to deep??
Too many CONTRADICKTIONS. (PUN INTENDED)
ANY INPUT GUYS???? SIMILAR SITUATIONS??? ADVICE???? GREATLY APPRECIATED.
SIDENOTE: She also watches a lot of porn and started watching porn early. She's 21 years old.
So much to the point that i've avoided sexual contact with females to spare myself the embarrassment of their dissatisfied reactions.
I've remained a virgin for 25 years due to this fear. However recently i lost my virginity, and started a long term relationship.
There have always been many females that showed interest in me, but i ALWAYS brushed them off because i felt like i would never be able to meet my, nor their expectations sexually.
I wanted a 12 inch mandingo size dick, but i have a dick between 6 and 7.5 inches. (depending on how hard it its).
Almost half the size of what i want it to be. (unrealistic expectations, I KNOW)
Probably due to the amount of porn i watched growing up, and how early i started watching porn. (been watching porn since like 10 years old).Prepubescent Porn watcher.
Probably would have been better to first see porn AFTER losing my virginity, but anyways.....
I eventually got to the point where i couldnt hold in my desire for sex, and recently decided to get in a relationship.
This girl i work with at walmart, like the others girls that were attracted to me, kept showing signs of interest, despite my constant ignoring of her advances.
I talked to my brother, and he convinced me i've had this fear for FAR to long, and it was hindering my quality of life, so i should take this girl out and see what happens.
I also didnt want to become a 40 year old virgin.
I got the girl number, and took her on a date to the movies that night.
Throughout the entire movie, all she talked about was sex. I dont even remember what the movie was about, we talked over an hour about our sexual experiences.
She ofcourse had several parters (she says 3), but i on the other hand was a virgin, but didnt want her to know that, so i had to improvise and come up with stories about my pseudo sexual encounters.
Dropped her off after the movie, nothing happend.
Next week we went to her house and we were watching t.v., then i had to act like a guy, and tell her i was ready to fuck, and she acted like a girl, and said she wasnt ready, then after i pushed the issue a few more times, eventually she said she was ready, and i pulled a condom out and attempted to have sex.
I wasnt able to get an erection at all, and tried to put my almost semi erect penis in, but it didnt work.
I ate her pussy for a bit, she asked to suck my dick, but i didnt want her to.
We pulled our pants up and called it a night.
The next day we tried again, still i couldnt get an erection.
The following week, we tried again, and i got a slightly harder erection, yet still couldnt successfully penetrate.
I spoke with my brother and he was also a late bloomer, and had experienced similar problems. He advised me to stop watching porn, as he did the same thing when he first started having sex.
I stopped porn for an entire week, and when i got horny, i would think about her while masturbating.
On our 4th attempt, with the help of natural lube, i finally was able to maintain an erection, and we were able to have sex, but i didnt cum.
The 5th time we finally had a pretty good 15-20 session, and i managed to get to the point of cumming.
Every since then, we have sex every time we see each other(at least 3 times a week, and twice a day on the days we do it), and she's the one who initiates it.
I can also maintain a rock hard 10 eq penis for a long period of time, and thanks to edging techniques, i can withhold cumming too quickly.
Heres the kicker, after sex, while we're cuddling one day, she mentions to me that i have the smallest penis she's seen on a man. Also she said i should consider surgery to make it longer. I brushed it off the first few times, and told her none of my "previous partners"(i have none) had a problem with my size. However, she continues to bring up how small my penis is, EVERY TIME we finish having sex.
Mind you, she moans while im fucking her, so i thought it was good enough for her.
I eventually started retorting back with insults about her pussy being loose, and her having a small ass, and being kinda fat.
Mind you, she's not really fat, just has a belly on her, her pussy is fine , and i dont mind her not having a huge ass, but i never brought that up EVERY damn time after sex.
She replied if i was serious about what i said, and insists that she is joking when she makes fun of my penis size.
I dont give her a straight answer, but i tell her she isnt perfect, but i still like the sex and am attracted to her.
I just dont understand why she is the one asking for the sex, yet constantly brings up how small it is.
She even said her ex was small, and showed me a picture of his penis. (Her ex was average, just like my size, but she apparently considers average small).
Before we started the relationship and was just dating, she would constantly ask me to show her my dick or send her dick pics, because she wanted to know what to look foreward to. She said she assumed i was small because at work she never saw my "penis print" on my pants.
She even makes jokes about finding another guy with a bigger dick and leaving me.
Last night when we had sex(which she initiated) i fucked her extremely harder than usual because i was angry that she keeps bringing up how small i am.
During the sex session, she kept pushing me back, and i moved her arms out the way, and my dick got harder and i kept hitting the vaginal walls and she was telling me i was hurting her, and going too deep, but i ignored her until i came.
Afterwards, she complained that her pussy hurts and she was sore. I told her "i thought my penis was too small. Surely a small penis cant hurt, or go too deep, you cant even feel it right??"
These comments she makes have been my WORST NIGHTMARE throughout out my 25 years of virgin lifehood.
I"ve always feared a girl not wanting me due to my dick being to small, or leaving me due to the size of my dick.
She claims she is joking about it being too small, but i dont see why she constantly mentions the size every time.
Also if she isnt joking, and really subconciously think its too small, why would she still want me to fuck her??
Also if its too small, and not long enough, why she tells me i was going to deep??
Too many CONTRADICKTIONS. (PUN INTENDED)
ANY INPUT GUYS???? SIMILAR SITUATIONS??? ADVICE???? GREATLY APPRECIATED.
SIDENOTE: She also watches a lot of porn and started watching porn early. She's 21 years old.
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